Peter's Pursuit

Why choose me?
You must be mistaken
You must look elsewhere for what you seek
Call someone else to follow you
I cannot do what you ask

Are you sure it’s me?
I am but a simple man
And a flawed man at that
I am only a fisherman
Not a fisher of men

What do I know?
I only believe in what I can see
And I only see today
How can I put my faith in your promises
When I cannot see what tomorrow holds

Why choose me as your rock?
I am not strong enough
I am not stable enough
I am not trusting enough
I am not confident enough
I am not enough

What do you see in me?
I see a man full of doubt
Full of fear; full of confusion
What is it that you see that I cannot?

Why change the plan?
You called me to follow—not to lead
I am afraid I will let you down, again
I am afraid I will disappoint you, again
I am afraid that I will deny you, again
I am afraid

How do you love that much?
How do you give so much?
How can I love like you?
How can I?

How can I carry on without you?
I never understood the love you possessed
I can only give in response; not give to give
I can only love like a man
I am only a man